there shouldn't be good in goodbye

for as long as anyone lives, go through one of such pain, it makes you more of a human. and stronger.

times does flies..

times flies and many things changes. after such a long time i finally decided to face the decision that i have made long time back and be responsible, fight my fear. 

i read these articles and started to realise more about myself than anything else. if i have decided to actively solve this problems then to just hide and avoid the problem away i would have done the correct way. 

Weisman cites four categories of reasons people in his survey set aside serious doubts and got married anyway:

•External pressures from parents, partner or others.

•Misguided motivations (infatuation, to escape parents).

•Personal beliefs (such as that the partner will "change").

•Thinking they won't find anyone else because of personality traits or low self-esteem.

(reference :http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2009-12-01-marriagedoubts_CV_N.htm)

And i can completely checked this list:

Based on my research, here are the five most common reasons cited for marrying the wrong guy:

1. We’ve dated for so long I don’t want to waste all the time we have invested in the relationship.

2. I don’t want to be alone.

3. He’ll change after we get married.

4. It is too late, too embarrassing and/or too expensive to call off the wedding

5. He is a really nice guy; I don’t want to hurt his feelings.

(reference: http://coldfeetpress.com/907)

I guess this time round i will be firm. Maybe this is the reason why i am giving myself no chance to turn again. making this as public as I can. So that i will live with this decision. 

I will still be thankful cause this entire ordeal make me stronger. i am sorry that i have to make him grow this way. it is not the way that i want to make this work. but i guess i have tried and i am sorry. 

final days...

the days seems to be flying past me these days... it is almost end of August and we are heading towards September and then October. first october is the day my customary will be held and now due to the limited time on hand, we are now trying to get everything organise. But i must be sick at this moment, just to make everything that is already quite challenging to be very challenging. Nevertheless, being me, the totally Murphy's law inclined bride, i am quite not that into the whole situation as yet. give me some more time. guess i will start panic in Sept when i know(and i am sure) there are things that i have not done and i have no time to do. haha.. i can sooo forsee it. =)

still aint any better?

back in jne when i decided the direction of my blog, i was all hype with the huge plans, new emails account and new blog addy to start that direction. but till now, i am suck up in work, wedding preparation and all the sidelines that i have not done anythng at all. what kind of impression i am trying to crave out. nothing spectacular i guess.

at this very moment, i am just loofing the fact that i am still half way around at getting things done. maybe the new year will bring about new inspiration.

but now, my latest crave for LV after many many years of Chanel and Hermes, a Palermo GM bag has concurred or rather concurring my heart. that and an embossed luggage tag. Perfecto!
then come and diliema, i dont wanna get a new one, cause LV depreciate too much and too fast. they are worst then cars. but the pictures to indulge in...


credits:online

new landing

after being obessed with bags and cosmetics for the longest time... i finally decided to take a step forward and put my knowledge and passion to good use. That will be to start trading bags so that the girls here can take advantage of the good value goods that can be found overseas. I will still be maintaining my vintage website to cater for good value, good quality second hand items. The good thing is that i can bring myself overseas and be more equip with looking out for quality second hand items that are laying somewhere.

now, i need to decide the name to market the bags with!

Great Singapore Sale

guess the GSS season really gets to me, finally! i just brought a Moss Green Balenciaga Part Time online at a great price.. the colour describe is Moss Green however, i am not able locate it anywhere.

Photo from purseblog.com

And now, i am looking at boots. Summer boots have never been so intriguing in my life. Not when this part of my world is slowly burning me to death. but these 2 are too cool (even for here). Ann Demeulemeester and Rick Owens.

 

photos from www.monamoore.com

How i wish these will be mine. They are on my lemmings list. Will i get to them, most likely not useless there are knockoff.

Another pair that i find really cool but i am still looking for a way to wear it (beside the obvious of putting it on).  This picture seriously doesnt does it any justice.

Slash TK by Jeffrey Campbell

enjoy your monday blues!

hiatus

after the long hiatus from this blog and now i am. truth is i have been blogging at another location, a private one that i keep to record all my thoughts, feeling, rumblings when the life get too much for me. this is a blog that started out when i wanted to create that link with my family and friends when i was away. guess this is a great place to start again. not that i am going away soon.. but that is in the pipeline.

i guess i am going to use this space again to put in all the rumblings that i have and the learnings for this past year. i have went to a whole new level since 08 and trust me, i have grown out of that material outer me to a more inner me. seeking for that growth that i am looking within. though i am still working on it. distinguishing things that matters to me and those that not. also, not forgetting those good to have.

but... now the major thing is.. haha.. i reallly need to study. as per my evergreen quest in life.. depsite my hatred for it, it has become a chicken and egg story that tires me.

Lunar New Year

Chinese New Year or Lunar New Year always held a special place in my heart. Except for maybe a couple of years ago when I just doesn’t appreciate it that much. Seen a couple of blog post about my grumbles of New Year and it now seems so foolish, juvenile. I was pretty upset and gotten real bored with a couple of New Year, couples with my vengeances for having to be back here top the iceberg.

But this new year, all the kids have grown up to be mature adult. We learnt to appreciate the however little moments/time we are together. Maybe it is the time apart that makes us all realize that no matter how different we are or want to be, there is only one family and they are the one that matters. I used to get all nostalgic when I talk about my cousins. They make a vital part of my childhood and they are the very persons that make it really enjoyable.

Back to the new year, our family been a special one, none of the convention or conservative type. We all learnt in the most innovative ways that somehow makes us who we all are today. Global exposure plus country exposure makes us different. The honesty and truthfulness in the family is a virtue that we all are equipped with. Usually single people avoid new year like plague as they will be face with the age-old cliché question, “when are you getting Married?’ but in my family, that is never a question though we are all single and hitting the big 30. Our parents are believers that marriage is not everything, not a security deposit, not a safety net. The person that we married to have to be of assistance to us either in work or characters. We don’t have to marry a rich person that we live out of his wealth. Nor a pretty vase. But someone that can truly integrate into our family.

I know that maybe another 5 years down the road we are all going to be completely different, with different focus and agenda in life. But I truly believe that the special bonding we had built are age old and able to fight though the ages.

“what’s left of me when you are not around?”

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